StarSongs

I found myself thinking today--prompted by a phrase or two in an exceptional book I am happily in the middle of--about being loved. Now don't run off just yet. My whole reflection on StarSong is to move myself from one point of of looking at a thing to a complete other. And without changing subjects...
It spoke of approval so deep and complete that one would 'shout for sheer joy'. And of being known so completely (with no disregarding or 'humoring')--all strengths and flaws--without being intimidated or ashamed.
As I sat and played with the phrasing in my mind, I had a brief moment of real comprehension--there and gone!--of the comparison of the love of a friend or a spouse to the perfect knowing-me-in-all-these-ways love of a perfect Being. It was a moment of revelation--clarity!--for me as I sensed in it how much better, more, indeed, completely and perfectly He loves me. And tho He loves everyone like this, I can't think in big numbers and spaces near as well as for just moi so I set it aside to explore later. And here I am.
 I don't think it's near as amazing that He knows us so completely and still loves us as it is that with His perfect 'knowing' He isn't jazzed, moved, weakened, upset--or even saddened--by anything about me. His expectations in this framework would be perfect, hence unchanging and immoveable...He can never be surprised or caught off guard by anything I think, say or do. His knowledge covers it all and still affords me every kind of freedom of choice in any given moment.
I think it's incredible to consider this perfectly complete, full, excatlyallthetime Full... (think glass never half empty, but always full no matter how many are drinking from it with straws!) Person never struggling to love me or 'get His attitude right' or drum up some affection for me or fighting the urge to quit or cut and run cuz I've finally driven Him Too crazy.
And you know, the only way this would even BE like this would be because something had to happen to make this possible. The playing field had to be leveled somehow. Otherwise, how could He be this way? If He is perfect and this impacts His love--ability, willingness..., something just had to have happened...
I think He wanted things to be okay so badly that He just came down here Himself to show us the deal...and I'm not covering the apologetics side of things here. I am just reflecting on things we hear, that we say and trying to put new spins on them to make them more real to me.
If He is loving me like this every day, 24/7, 365 days a year from Way back when til all the way thru forever, then Wow.
Just wow.